i miss the friend in the photo.
people often say, out of 100 friends you make. you may only meet 1 which is true.
and wendyl tan was.

thank you for being there for me when uncle passed away.
for encouraging me when i failed my prelims.
for calling my mum and taking in all the blame.
for being there for me when i was slapped by my mum in front of my relatives.
for the non stop encouragement be it before test or when i failed.
for being there when i lost faith.
for helping me to open up when i lost someone close.
for teaching me to be optimistic no matter how bad things can be.
for the constant wake ups when i slept during lit test.
for being the first one to be happy when i passed bio test.
for accepting me who i am when others never failed to judge me.
for being so true.
for teaching me that opening up sometimes is the best solution.
for trusting even when sometimes i was at the verge of giving up.
for the genuine concern when times were so bad.
for calling every now and then just to make sure i did not give up.
for our friendship.
for impacting my life and making a big difference.

this post is out to you, best friend.

(uncompleted cos schools at 8 tmr)

certain trees bear no fruits.

for soo long, ive tried so hard, put in so much effort.

even though at times i get really tired,

i tell myself to hold on becos its going to be worth it in the end.

i keep trying to convince myself or console myself silently when everything seems not to fit into the picture. i keep telling myself things will change things will change.

but today suddenly, it dwelled on me that im just living in self denial.

things will not change nor improve or become better.

out of ten times, ten times im pushed or shuffed aside.

dad and mum have discussed about sending me overseas once i graduate,

i cant wait to graduate now. i want to leave singapore.

although i know that one day when that happens, everything is just going to be so different.

i want to leave singapore...

what do i do what do i do what do i do.

cheers to the pictures below. ( :

i had a very beautiful dream and i wished it was true.
when i woke up only to realise that the reverse of my beautiful dream was happening in my daily life. i slept in my bed and cry and cry.
im just acting like a small kid lahh. you know, emo kids deserve to die.
please god let me die, im dead serious! ( :

firs half of my day i spent quality time with my bed of cos. i'm left with a week. time is precious.
and the 2nd half was spend chilling at vivo.
right. so that sums up everything.

okay. first things first.
patience hit the MAX, tolerance hit the MAX.
so which goes to say, to certain people i do not see myself trying to be so nice to anymore.
totally not worth it. how many times have i like tolerate and lower my head down to the slam downs of phones and the scoldings on phones. throwing and disregarding that i have my dignity and pride was the last straw. so, we'll stay far away from each other and put the frequent meet ups to a halt here. i'm a petty person but to many incidents, i think it is enough.
ok, no point talking about such stuffs but ooh well.
if you think sy is easy to bully and stuffs, i dont like try to revenge or smth. bahh. i just back off. its the smartest way. ( :

2nd thing up.
friends should fucking have sacked me on monday. which totally screwed up my whole fucking mood today causing me to weep some time away on my lovely sofa. oooh well. i get over things fast enough, just a phone call to make me cry. goodness, i ought to be stronger as in.. arrrr fuck it. i dont know how to put it either. but welll, i just ought to stay strong.

3rd thing up.
i stand by my own rules. ( :
i dont want to be like taking in gases from ppl all the time, and den fuck it.
you know smth... i can roar too.
ROAR.
no more being nice to unappreciative ppl.
lalalala~
i shall update more soon enough.

ooh ya. 4th
my fucking time table sucks.
my birthday 8-830pm ):
haiya... i lead a sad sad life. LOL LOL!

sigh. ) :

okay. here comes the big news... i've got sacked from work again! ( : ( : not that bad actually considering that i already wanted to quit but... fuck it, i should have said earlier before i got sacked. its very embarrassing to get sack you know! anyway in short i just want to say...
there are CERTAIN people i DO NOT MIND losing from my life. okay i dont really have to spell it out or whatever, but whatever it is, please back off. and now i got to run. i wana update reallll soon. HOHOHO. see you!

BAHHH.
very fucked up ahhhh!!!
its been so long.

anyway ytd i was running a high fever after coming out of the cinema.
which was damn idiotic becos it made me fell sick. it was like a freezer.
fucking hell, first time i tremble like fuck in the cinema with my teeth chattering as well.
and damn, the movie felt like forever.