met KRK, eli & edds after school.
i heard theres a SURPRISE for me today but i didnt know where exactly we were heading until late evening. which means GOOD GOOD GOOD.
becos surprise are meant to be surprising. HEE HEE HEE.
okay, details shall be said later in the post.

so anyway, headed down to marina square to wait for RK to dye his hair.
he looks beng now i guess, if you want to know what colour, meet him urself. HEH.
after that we were "supposed" to watch enchanted which i requested but ended up to be fake.
RK went home with me to change his shirt while edds drew 50 bucks from my bank.
but when i met them, they had already spent 40 bucks of my money which kinda shock me.
& in the end, we board a van headed to NIGHT SAFARI!
sadly eli went emo becos she was broke, & edlyn & rk has to eat porridge now.
the mangrove swamp walk was cool & all, with eli & edlyn hiding being scared of bats.

edlyn: ehh eli dont scared lah we just go mangrove swamp lahh.
eli : huh i dont want..
so we went in still.

in the mangrove swamp
edlyn : SY! SY! dont walk so fast. the people all here! (grabs my hand & walk slowly)

how contradicting!

eli said i acted like i was drunk while we were taking a stroll along nature. crazy fella-
HEE HEE HEE.
smth rather embarrassing happened while we were out of night safari.
edlyn says, to get the FREE ride back to amk, we must go back to where we alighted from at 10pm.
we went back, run & jump around back to the van.
sat inside for like 20 mins, & realised that wasnt the van!
LOL. damn hilarious, the uncle just let us sit inside without telling us that he was fetching his regular customers. so we missed the transport & took bus back instead.

today was greattttt! really greattt.
i just wana say a big thank youuu!
ive been wanting to go to the night safari for a long long time.
its always good to say out ur wishes huh. ( : ( :
HEE HEE HEE.
i appreciate it all. gham xia many many.
i love today & night safari! ( :

something interesting -

i fell down yesterday along a pavement that was facing the main road.
& now ive got a couple of blue blacks on me not to forget that i have difficulty laughing or sleeping on my side.
it has been months or even a year since i fell down in public. goodness.

whole of saturday was spent with KRK.
along pasir ris & walking in town till most of the shops closed.
i shall upload our M&M picture soon, its pretty cool.
becos we ask ppl to take for us. WAHAHA.

i've been talking to a couple of people over the things that have happened.
& come to know that im not the only one going through this whole chunk of shit myself.
i dont really hope or want things to be better anymore i suppose.
okay, goodbye & hello to the future. ( :

alright, its going to be a busy week.
i need loads & loads of luck for me to get through the week. HEH.

i have felt enough, enough for me to know what i should and should not do.
decisions have been made;

im going independant.

i'll do good. some things are worth it and some aint. and i've seen the picture far too clearly.
clearer den u can ever imagine. i withdraw. incidents have proven it all. no more babe-

no boys, no girls.
friends equality. close friends, basketball friends, all stand at the same level.
disappointments goes out.
peace out.

" you were always there for me. "
thats what i often hear.

but who was there when i really needed someone most.
) :


thanks alvin for everything all this while.

perhaps this is just a bad bad bad dream.
pls wake me up? ) :

there isnt really much that i want to say.
or could have said back.

i just hope someone can accompany to places i want to go,
do things that i want do.
becos.. i feel so alone.