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MOVING HOUSE! : D
been packing for the past few days.

threw away so much.
some that i've kept for years.
read over my diary, some thoughts and feelings written on paper.
and i feel....
these few years, i've grown alot, experienced alot and felt alot.

going to suzhou was great.
i got longest break that i've always been looking for.
and also... the nicest feeling that i havent been able to feel in spore.

anyway, new life- i hope, and promise. ( :

everything went well today except that i was pretty much nervous.

i'm thinking if i should speak to adeline tmr becos i kind of want her back as my supervisor. but its so embarrassing for a student to ask a lecturer to extend her last day in the school.

ooh well.
tmr's a friday. : D

HELLO STRESS.
you will be gone after 9 hours. : D

let it go well pleaseeeeeeeeee.
i'm so freakingg scared.

stress, stress, stress and more stress.

i like talking to KRK, he takes everything away
and makes me laugh out of the stupidest ways.
like showing me his bowl head on webcam.
: D
for a moment i forgot about my presentation and all the stress,
ooh no, now i've got to face it.
baby, im heading for a new beginning.

saturday, HEH.

you make me see things so clearly, way too clear.

how do you expect me to feel about you.
i wont try anymore.

its not easy.

ive posted tonnes and tonnes of posts about looking forward, waking up each and every day making full use of it, doing things i like. putting things behind me.

at a certain point of time, determination gets me going.
when i look at how optimistic ppl can be, i tell myself i want to be that way.
when i tell myself being optimistic and happy gets things going, slowly i can be what i want to be.
and where i want myself to be.

but after a while, i find myself going back.
not once, not twice, not thrice.

i read this book "follow your heart"
it says if you keep doing the same things, you get the same results.
and if you failed, you will keep failing.
it happens the same with our mind too.
unless we change how we think, we will keep feeling the same way.

i did, i tried. i followed what the book said.
and i nvr learn.

i really hate nyp.
becos its really times like these, that i find it hard to keep myself going.
just one more yr...
i want out of singapore fast,
even though i cant clique with who im going with.

i dislike myself for being this way.
stay strong. stay strong. stay strong.
dont make me look so stupid.
becos i do feel that way.

let me go please.
let me out of this endless cycle.